Well, I guess we should have started this at the very beginning of our journey but looking back it really didn’t feel like we would ever have got this far with no result. I guess initially you are blindly optimistic (regardless of what anyone tells you) and fall into the ‘it-won’t-happen-to-me’ basket. We certainly were. I suppose it didn’t help that most of our friends had no trouble at all, it made that the norm. Whatever the reason, the veil of naivety has definitely been lifted now.
Our journey for Bumble started 20 months ago on my 31st birthday. We were on holiday, it was fun, exciting, a little bit nerve-wracking (we were taking that next big step after all), but most of all it felt right. Ever so innocent we were sure Bumble would be here just like that, a few months at the most. After making the decision at New Years that we were ready (literally like a switch was flicked in my head) I came of the pill and started charting my temperature to work out when I ovulated and how long my cycles were. We knew it took a while for the remnants of the pill to leave your system so we waited a few months before we started trying.
Well, no luck the first month, we missed our window by a week, turns out charting temperatures isn’t an exact science. Never mind we thought, it’s only the first try, onto month two. Again, no luck in the second month. Not so easy this time round and, although only month two, it was the first time I cried at our lack of result. In hindsight that seems ridiculous but you have to remember the majority of our friends had conceived almost straight away: “oh, it only took us two months”, “we conceived first try”, and my sister just has to look at her husband to get pregnant.
On and on we go with various tweaks, changes and experiments along the way (more on that later) until we reach this point. In three days time I begin a more aggressive approach as I head into surgery (hopefully my one and only) to explore my insides and see what’s going on. So we may now be 20 months along but at this fork in the road it seems an opportune time to begin to detail our journey….for ourselves…for anyone interested in reading it…for those walking a similar path…and most of all for Bumble who, fingers crossed, will join us sometime soon.